Me - Sounds Of A Social Outcast

2007-02-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

Oh my God, it has been 2 months plus since I have updated my blog. I can't believe it. Time really flies. It is seriously not easy to control 2 blogs and I have to say though. This blog is seriously dead. I don't think I'm able to continue with this blog anymore.

However, it's a good sign though. It shows that my depression days are so much over. Now that seriously I'm a totally different person. Thinking more positive and stuff. Really feels good and different.

Alright, I guess I will close this blog soon I guess. It is perhaps just a matter of time....

2006-12-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone. To those who followed through my blog since last Christmas, I did not go to Singapore like I said that I wanted to. It feels so sad. Anyway, did not do much this Christmas. Haven't been blogging for some time. But tomorrow will major update my other blog.

Merry Christmas to everyone again....

2006-11-29T22:15:00.000+08:00

Having been having any fun activities lately. All is work. Seeing how people enjoying their social life, laughters, sports, dance, makes me wonder whether university is my kind of place? I'm not really sure. At times, I just really feel like working, cause if you give me deadlines, I can do it alone. I love to help people (for good purposes) in work, that's what I can say.

Still wondering.........

2006-11-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

It has been very long since I updated my blog. Perhaps it's a good news, perhaps it is a bad news. Well, this blog is about my depressed life whereas Mr.FcuK is about my undepressed life. So not updating this blog seems to show that lately I don't have much depression till today.

Just feel very depressed, that's all. Anyway, my ladtop seems to be dieing soon. No idea why. Perhaps the fan inside my ladtop is dead. Seriously no idea.

No mood to continue to blog.....

2006-11-03T15:24:00.000+08:00

Just taking a time out from my moral assignments. I really want to know how people live their life. What's behind closed doors of one's life. I need to learn from experience, because there is no guide for me to follow in life.

Curiosity in my head is growing stronger and stronger. It's hard to make friends with people who is in a different range of age group. But I really want to know how grown up live their lives. They really temp me..........

Eyes - The Most Expressive Side of Humans

2006-11-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

Yes, the eyes are the most expressive side of humans. When you look into people's eyes, you can actually see who the person really is deep down inside. Eye contact does tell a lot of things. That is why, at times, eye contact is important, but sometimes eye contact is dangerous.

You don't have to see a person face to face to see the eyes, but seeing the eyes of a person's photograph will let you know the answer.

Try it yourself, and you will see the other side of a person you thought you knew.

So sad to know.... Why, my friend.......

100th Post

2006-11-01T08:43:00.000+08:00

This is my 100th post of this blog. That's kinda slow to reach 100 post, given the time period that I have with this blog.

When I decided to let people know about this blog, I'm actually afraid that everyone will look at me differently, looking me as a person who is suffering as a depression. But I do not know, perhaps some are looking at me like that, perhaps some don't. But I guess I'm looking at them as if they are looking at me as a person who is suffering from depression. Confusing isn't it?

In the last post I mentioned that I wanted to be a ghost. Yeah, being a ghost would do so much fun, knowing that you will not die again. Wandering around in the human world, seeing things that normal people would not have seen before. Seeing what president George Bush is doing in his office, finding where Osama is, check out what's in the Bermuda Triangle. There's just too many things to do, and most of all, it's free.

Now, how cool is that...........

2006-10-31T20:27:00.000+08:00

Everything is not going as well as I expected. I'm still clueless with my life, with no sense of direction. Seeing people now doing dance training, doing taekwondo training, people talking to each other, makes me wonder how beautiful their lives really are.

I have nothing that I can think of is succesful. I really want something special to do which I don't even know what. I don't want a big house, a big car, fancy shoes. I just want something, something which I still can't seem to figure out.

Sitting in one corner blogging while other people is doing their own things does make me transparent. I really want to have the experience to be a ghost. Yes, no one wants that, but I do. Sounds funny isn't it. I'm not afraid of death, I'm just afraid that I do not know when I'm going to die.

Everyday, it feels like a bullet is entering my head. Sometimes, it feels like the bullet is trying to be extracted out of my head, sometimes it feels like it is going deeper.

I don't really want to study anymore, but people say what more can I do. I have no idea, but I know is I'm just working like a machine now, pushing myself everyday, without having much emotion. It's like terminator.

Who do I turn to? What should I do? I really want to know, but I just can't go on like that....................................................................................................................

2006-10-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

Is it possible for a person to give up everything to help people in their life? Is it possible to change poeple without having a master or PHD in pyschology? Is it possible to help marriage?

These things are going on my mind. I have seriously witnessed many changes of people since young. Even myself did experience a lot of changes, I sometimes does get myself out of control. I wonder how are all my friends from secondary school is doing.

I admit, I regreted giving a speech to them during the farewell. So here goes

We do not know which road is the correct road ahead of us. There are always a lot of roads ahead of us. Some of you will be successful businessman, life-saving doctors, inspiring teachers, efficient engineers, or even fantastic hackers. Some of you will be married, some with kids, some without, and some of you may me single. I really do not you, neither do you. All these roads will lead to different outcome and different obstacles. So no matter what, the most important thing is you know how to handle yourself and change for the better along the journey. Cherish yourself, people around you while you are still here and while they are still here. Good luck...

2006-10-17T09:26:00.000+08:00

I used to love writing and blogging. Now I can't even write and blog well. I have lost the touch of concentration and inspiration. This blog is soon going to be dead but I will still not let Mr.FcuK to go back down. I now have 2 blogs to manage. Soon, maybe I have to close this, but I can't seem to let go this blog, similarly to my Friendster blog, which I decided not to delete.

Now, is all hard work that needs to come out....

2006-10-16T15:20:00.000+08:00

Things are still up and down here. After few sessions with the counsellor, I feel much better though. Like people said, when there's no one around you can trust, the only people you can trust are strangers.

Lectures are getting to be tough. Tiredness are coming to haunt me. Frustration is arising from within. All of these just makes me wonder how long more. Am I doing the right thing? Did I took the right road. Can I know what happen if I took the other road. I guess not.......

2006-10-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

Semester is going to be very tough. I can tell by looking at the lecturers, the character change of stidents, the dividing of students and the management of the school.

I'm not sure how can I cope wit the new semester. I managed to go through semester 1, but it was lucky. Seriously, I do not know how long will I last in this campus. It is making my head spinning. The past week has been great but the negative thoughts is starting to come back fast starting today. Hope it can go away fast.

Everything is not easy as it seems. People say, as long as there's a will, there's a way. But what happens if there's no will and your head is completely blank? Or you really do not know what to do? Is a guidance necessary then? I really do not know.

As we all know, everyday, we are dying slowly inside......

2006-10-01T12:04:00.000+08:00

Lectures starting tomorrow. It's really fast. I really don't want to go back to lectures. It's so killing me. Anyway, the holidays were just plain alright. Can't wait for chirstmas though. Feel like going to Singapore again.

Raya must go back cause all MMU friends are back. Have to DotA with Way Chow, Jen Tat, Zhou Yeong, Ch'ng and Chee Ping. Feeling numb now, total blankness........

2006-09-22T20:29:00.000+08:00

It's been weeks since I updated my stuff. The life since then was really like a Rollercoaster ride. Up and down everyday. Semester is starting soon and perhaps I have fears of going back to school. Really run out of words to blog. Inspirationless ready. Even Mr.FcuK is dead. I'm really clueless.....

2006-09-08T12:19:00.000+08:00

Looks like my blog is fading. I kinda run out of thoughts and things to blog about, but yet I have a lot of things on my mind. Perhaps lacking of inspiration is the key. Just feeling tired now....

2006-09-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

It has almost been a month since I updated my blog. Anyway, was kinda busy for the past few weeks. Had to meet up with friends to DotA, really clean my room, go to Penang, trade cards online get ready my stuff, and now I'm back in KL.

What to blog about now? I'm not quite sure till I figure out some stuff. Or perhaps thinking of making 2 blogs into one. I do not know.

Oh yeah. I just remembered. I managed to visit the Nationals Compeition in Cititel Mid Valley in the past weekend. Managed to only see day 1. Felt sorry for the Penang players and I could not believe that Terry Soh actually won the Malaysian Nationals. If only Marcus went. Unfortunately I did not take pictures in the tournament. That's all for now....

Malaysia National Qualifiers 2006 (Penang)

2006-08-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

This are some pictures taken from the Malaysia National Qualifiers 2006 from Penang. This is the best match of the whole tournament. The red shirt guy with the specs is Andrew Lee and his opponent is Hamzah. Andrew was using a Solar Flare deck and Hamzah is using a zoo deck. Andrew went down to 1 life left while Hamzah was still having 24 life. From then on, Andrew went to won the game with 1 life left. The 4 people who qualified were Mathew Wong (red shirt guy with cap), Keat Long (top left hand guy), Lim Ban Lee and also Andrew Lee. It was really a great tournament to watch
Andrew and Hamzah starting game 2.
Andrew had a hard time handling the Blood Moon.
This was the life score I took.

2006-08-14T12:33:00.000+08:00

I just found out myself that last time I could actually write a lot in my blog, but now, all my posts are just very short. Why is that? I really have no idea. Perhaps it is because that in my schooling days, there are many things which inspires me to write about. Perhaps another reason is because I am really in the state of forgetting stuff. I have a really bad memory. Really want to get into the state of writing again, but I do not know how. The environment I am in now is very stress........

2006-08-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

Haven't been updating my blog for a while now. Friends from MMU came back, so we had to DotA for few days. Went to Penang 2 days back. Tomorrow there's Nationals Qualifier at Marcus's place. Really busy for the past few days.

Anyway, sometimes people just do not understand. Sometimes it is hard for a person who is depressed to accept the fact. What can help a person who is depressed. Encouragement and compliments will do that, but living in an environment which all people do is critising, does make it hard for one who is depressed to feel better. I'm now really at a state of confusion. I do not know whether who are those who can really help me. So far, I know that there is just only one who has given me much encouragement and support which makes me feel better and someone whom I can trust really well.

What happens when no one gives you credit for what you did and not even yourself? You tend to see yourself as a failure then. What happens after that? Images will appear on newspaper then....

Wireless Online

2006-08-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

Finally got wireless connection in my room in my house at my hometown. I found out few times ready just that I couldn't have a good connection, until today when I can connect and blog. Haha. Honestly, the wireless connection is somewhere from one of my neighbour's house. I'm actually "borrowing" connection. So happy now.....

2006-08-03T18:53:00.000+08:00

Finally, I am able to set my modem to become a router but now the speed is damn slow. However, my desktop is certainly better in playing DotA. I'm getting worse now in the game. I do not know why. Perhaps there are lots of things which trouble me. Anyway, I have to set my priority straight this time. Reducing the time on DotA is what I need, and I hope I can succeed....

2006-07-31T20:33:00.000+08:00

I just feel that the worst will be coming soon. An end to a life might soon be coming. I am not sure what will happen but I will soon find out. Sometimes I feel that everything has a sign. Every movement of humans have signs which shows something - something which is very much unexplainable. I guess like I said, I know pretty much I will be gone, just waiting for the time to come. Mistakes do not go unpunished. Soon just keeps me in agony, why can't I know when is soon? If I am planning to start a book before I leave, perhaps I should start, if not I guess my memories will not be remembered.....

2006-07-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

Time will show everything. It is just a matter of time to see how is my life is going to be. The person who said left a comment said that hope will never leave me. After much thinking, I believe that he/she is right, but I am wondering whether I have what it takes to get the hope? I feel like the life of mine is starting to fall into pieces. It things get back, there is always places like the Penang Bridge or maybe the roofs of shopping complexes. I am really in doubt.....

A Break?

2006-07-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

I am hoping for a nice break after my exams. Hope to get back with Marcus in Penang. Hope can sell out my things on eBay. I hope that I can start to know more people and get to understand the way of life. How I wish I can go to Singapore to see the WCG. I know my friend, Jonathan is going for WCG DotA. I wish him good luck man.

So what am I doing before my exams for tomorrow? Well, none other than DotA of course. Here are the screenshots. Honestly, I am very noob in farming. I do admit that, but I must also admit that I am not pro. Very noob seriously. OWNING!!!!

2006-07-22T20:17:00.000+08:00

Not feelin well right now, both physically and mentally. I am not sick though, perhaps many thoughts are coming to my mind now. My friends always tell me that I think too much at times. Perhaps that is true, but if I do not, it might break me as I am not that mature and have much experience yet. I guess the world now is really changing. I found a nice wallpaper few days back at deviantart.com, named as evolution, which is created by alyn. It shows the evolution of the world. A very nice wallpaper to put on your desktop by the way. Alright, signing off now....

2006-07-21T17:57:00.000+08:00

Well, back to the small little peaceful town. A place to retire to be exact. Anyway, exams are coming this Monday and I haven't finish studying. Yes, I have started, but only 20%. That is not going to help. Honestly, I do not take exams into priority. There are many other things more important than just taking exams and see the marks of yours and know that someone surely has higher marks than you.....

Tsunami Struck Again

2006-07-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

Tsunami struck again at Jakarta. How sad can that be? Moreover, it is said that the tsunami might reach Malaysia at 10 pm just now. Could that happen? I do not know. Guess will have to wait for the news tomorrow.

Please pay your respect to all the victims. You can read more about the incident here.....

Italian Scandal

2006-07-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

Juventus, AC Milan, Fiorentina and Lazio have all faced the consequences for what they have done. What a big disgrace for all these clubs. I really do not understand why they would do such a thing. It is really undescribable. Patrick Viera must be wishing that he is back in Arsenal now, but too bad for him. Champions League will not be as nice as the previous seasons now as 2 big guns are out of the competition. I wonder whether this will affect the game creation for Football Manager 2007 and also Championship Manager.....

2006-07-12T14:12:00.000+08:00

Being back at my home does not seem nice. Imagine you are in a house which you have never seen before. The internet connection here is not very good, but I still can play DotA on blueserver. I miss the wireless connection over there. I cannot use my ladtop to online when i’m in my room. I thought of buying a wireless router, but there is not much usage of it here. It is kinda bored here, compared to the house near my university. The fun part of being home here is that I get to go to Marcus’s shop and meet all my friends. I managed to go to the Coldsnap Pre-release on Sunday, and there were a lot of jokes. By the way, I want to thank all of you who posted up comments on my blog. I was shocked when I checked my mail the other day, to find out that there were 9 comments for me to approve…….

Changing

2006-07-02T23:20:00.000+08:00

Since March 13, the day when everyone took their SPM result, I didn't have many chances to see people. However, I have a very strong feeling about something, something which is very bad, something which is worrying me too much.

People like Liew, Siew Lee, Kenneth, Chan, Ellie, Lee and others(sorry if I didn't mention your name), I just hope they will stay the same. However, I do have some feelings that things might go wrong. They are just as great.

As for my friends who are same form as me, this is really serious. I do not know how they will be after one month, half a year, 1 year, 1 decade. I really do not know. I just hope they are still the same. Even if they fall into darkness, God, please help them to get back on their feet. I really don't want to see them to be worse. I am here just wishing.

I guess, the theory is correct. When one obtain power, one will change. All of those people who I know have obtain a power which is the power of freedom from home, which means a lot to anyone. With these freedom, one will be worse or better, depending on how one uses it. And I just hope all of them know how to cherish this freedom.

My last post does really show how I was feeling during that time. I was really feel like dying. After that, I realised that I still can go on. There is always a solution to everything, no matter fast or slow, as long as one has support from anyone.

I have a vision, which is to study people. I really want to know what people think. I feel like being a kindergarden teacher sometimes, to pass on the good knowledge to the young and hope they can find their way up. I have lost much of my sense of humour, laughter and socialising. All I can do now is to stand in one corner and study human character........

GOD, Please Kill Me

2006-06-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

Even though one is sick, there is nothing worse than Losing HOPE.....

Blueserver (BS)

2006-06-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

Haih, I was really busy lately. Haven't been updating my blog for around 1 week. A lot of things going on. However, holidays are coming close ready and that time I will start blogging again.

Anyway, I tried Blueserver for the first time few days back and it was not as easy as I thought. Haha. I was pawned badly for the first 2 days. After that slowly improving a bit only. Unfortunately that the Blueserver registration close, so I need to use my friend's account to play. I need my name, FCUK in Blueserver.......

2006-06-19T13:11:00.000+08:00

I am feeling really tired lately. I need a vision, so I know where am I heading. I do have a vision in mind, but without support and resources, it is hard for me to achieve that vision. Economics and Math Test is tomorrow. I have a lot of work to do. One thing I do not like about group work is you can have your own freedom and sometimes you have to wait for people. This is really a headache as sometimes it can slow you down.

Anyway, I made a song request on 987FM (Singapore) yesterday by sending an email to them and they played their song on air. I only can listen to it online of course through Real Player. If you do not have Real Player, hope you will get one and start listening.

Having 2 blogs seems kinda hard now. I feel like writing a dairy now. I do not know how to write a good blog that will attract readers. I will try to go on, but I do not know how long I will last. After around 1 year of blogging, maybe it is time to take a break. I will see how......

The Fast and The Furious: Tokyo Drift

2006-06-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

I did not update my blog lately because was sick and a little busy. I managed to watch Tokyo Drift on Thursday at Berjaya Times Square. As a result, the movie is worth paying to watch. I feel that the movie is better than 2 Fast 2 Furious. I would give it a 4.8 out of 5 for that movie. Guys will certainly love this movie as there are a lot of chicks with all kinds of clothes. After watching the movie, my hands are a little itchy because I feel like drifting.

Anyway, I still went for the movie although I was sick. In the end, I had to see the clinic at Times Square and to my surprise, it was quite cheap. The price is not that expensive after all. Lately, I do not know what to put on blog, this is kinda bad, cause you need to update blogs to keep your readers reading. Plus, I have a lot of homework coming up. Guess, I will stop here and I hope you guys will watch Tokyo Drift as it is a must watch movie.....

2006-06-15T02:10:00.000+08:00

Finally, finished my main social presentation today. Feel so much relieved. Plus, lately, I started to play tower defence(td) in Warcraft. It looks kinda fun. However, there are so much work somemore for me to do.

I can't wait for Tokyo Drift later at 5pm. I am going to watch with my friends at Berjaya Times Square. The tickets at Mid Valley Megamal is fully booked. I hope it will be one of the best movies this year as Pirates also looks very nice this year. It is either these two movies which will be the movie of the year for me. I wish the movie is as good as what I am expecting as drifting is really nice. I want to learn drifting......

Dedication to IPG Friends

2006-06-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

I am dedicating this post to my friends at IPG. I have not seen them since I left. The difference between northen part of the country and the southern part is really distinct. Perhaps people like me should stay back at the northen region. Here are the pictures of them here....The famous middle finger taken in Gurney Plaza during my last day.All of us during my last lesson with Ms.Geetha.

2006-06-10T22:14:00.000+08:00

I am now watching England playing while blogging. It makes me feel like I am a professional blogger. Unfortunately, I am not, but I hope to be one. England is leading 1-0 now at 57 minutes.

Anyway, you can really learn many things in the university by observing people. You can see that people tend to switch groups. Does this mean anything? Is it because they are feeling insecure in one group which makes them searching for another group or is it they want to be with the popular ones. Does these actions sounds rational? Why don't poeple just be themselves without being influence by other people. For example, you can follow a friend to start drinking, but you can also choose to say no. Saying no is kinda hard compared to saying yes. Rejecting seems kinda hard when it comes to friends, but it would be a great achievement if you can do it. So what if you start to change groups, do you think it would be better? Maybe yes, maybe not. Take a moment and think and you will be able to see the road ahead clearer.....

2006-06-10T09:30:00.000+08:00

The accomodation service of the Nottingham University in Malaysia is just plain alright. If you want to say that it is good, I have a little doubt about that. I feel that the employees for the company is not dedicated in their work. However, there is one employee which I respect the most. It is the Indian driver. Although he is not the one who is sitting in the office, he seems to be quite dedicated. The people in the office tend to push their responsibilities to others. This Indian guy here(I'm not sure how to spell the name), does perform a number of tasks. Apart from picking students from school and to school, he also does the maintenance for the houses. Like my house, previously the toilet got stucked, he called a plumber here. Now, the bathroom downstairs has a little problem and he is fixing it. He can act as if he does not care, but he is willing to fix it. Plus he is coughing now while fixing the problem. This situation is quite rare in certain cases as it is hard to find an employee as good as him. He should be the employee of the month. That is why sometimes I feel that being friends with the "financially average" is better than those under the "above finanical average" category......

World Cup 2006

2006-06-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

In about 2 and 25 minutes time, it will be the start of World Cup 2006 in Germany. This year is going to be quite an exciting one. There are a number of people who predicted that few underdogs will surprise many people. I think Ivory Coast will do very well this time. Good luck to all the 32 teams and I hope England will produce something extraordinary......

Petals Around The Rose

2006-06-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

I got this puzzle from my friend's blog. It is called Petals Around The Rose. You can find the link here. I cannot really solve it. However, when one does not know what to do, what should one do? Mr.Brown once said, "You don't know ar? Go Google lar!" I remembered what he said when I was figuring half way. Finally I got the solution.

For those who wish to try them out without Googling, I have 2 tips for you.

Always remember the name of the game. It influences the game a lot.
The answers will always be an even number.

So, all the best in solving the puzzle......

Stupid Me?

2006-06-09T01:13:00.002+08:00

So now Blogger has some problem. It was really hard even for me to enter blogger and to post something. It seems that they have some hardware problem. It is funny though. My friend seems to be able to check out my blog but I can't. My connection problem? Maybe, maybe not.

Anyway, I am really not in the mood now. Sometimes, I really feel like killing myself for my stupidity and cowardness. Perhaps this is what I get from all the wrong doings I did in my life so far. One advice for everyone, do not start to talk right away with a stranger friend, as in making new friends in universities or colleges. Always try to observe them for the first few weeks, one week at least. If you are not careful, the one who will be suffering will be yourself, like me. I can tolerate if it is only a few times, but when things are out of hand, I cannot tolerate anymore. If sometimes people only know how to think, it would not be so bad. I have learnt my lesson and trust me, you do not want to be in the same position with me.

Now, I really miss Penang so much. I miss Marcus and all. Feel like playing PTQ Kobe. I really hope that I can participate in the Pre-release ColdSnap. I consider myself really useless. My inner spirit self of me is really hurting now and I guess that shortens my life by a little. I do not know whether I can sleep soundly later or end up dead tired tomorrow morning. It is already 1.23am and if you readers see this post to be posted after 9.00am later, this means that I did not post up my blog around 1am due to the technical problem from Blogger.....

MTG Society ?

2006-06-07T19:51:00.000+08:00

Finally, I can play Magic online with my friends without using Magic The Gathering Online (MTGO). It is called Magic Work Station. Haha. I feel so happy. Although I cannot touch physical cards, at least I still can play.

Anyway, I feel like establishing a Magic The Gathering Society in my university. I heard from a friend that there are people playing. However, what event can I hold? Can I hold Friday Night Magic to attract players? The only event I can hold is draft only. I really do not know. If there is a chance, I really want to do it......

Magic Grand Prix Kuala Lumpur 2006

2006-06-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

What an event it was. I got 3 wins, 2 draws and 3 loss. I am ranked 189 among 316 players. It was really a great experience for me to play against so many players.

Day 1
I took the KTM and later on changed to LRT to go to KLCC. Along the way, this got my attention.
Look at how dirty is the river.After that, I met up with Marcus and all at KLCC. I decided to register for Grand Prix Trial(Flight 3) to get to know Dissension cards. During lunch, we decided to eat at Kenny Rogers Roasters. It was really delicious. There were jokes started ready on the table with Marcus's friend, Vivian talking about funny stuff with funy expressions.
After lunch, few of us waiting outside for flight 3 while there are others who are playing in flight 1 and 2 and also there are some who haven't reach yet.
We checked in the hotel, Crown Princess Hotel at around 7 plus. Then, we ate dinner at around 9 plus at Pizza Hut near the hotel and some ate KFC. After a nice meal and many jokes again, we went back to the hotel. Then it was drafting time in the hotel room as you can see below. I decided not to draft but just to observe them.
(Clockwise) Marcus, Andrew Lee, Terence, Jeff, Ching Onn, someone who I forgot the name, "PKHem" and Rick Lee a.k.a Sifu.

Day 2
We woke up at 8 to get ready for the event. We reached there at around 9.30 and waited for the event to start. The pictures below are showing the situation during day 2.
There were 316 players that day. Some of them were very sleepy, some where trading, some were buying cards, some were queuing up to get their cards signed, and some were just walking around.
These were the judges. Terence was one of them as he decided not to play.
People were queuing up for RK Post to sign their cards. His art is very nice and I like Lightning Angel the most. Deck registration started at around 10.30 and deck construction started around 25 minutes later. We had a lunch break and Round 1 started at around 12.30. I faced a Malay guy from Malaysia at Round 1 (I won), a Chinese Malaysian at Round 2 (I won), a Singaporean at Round 3 (I lost), a Singaporean at Round 4 (I lost), a Chinese Malaysia at Round 5 (I drew), my friend, Boon Ping at Round 6 (I won), a Malay Malaysian at Round 7 (I lost) and my friend, Keren at Round 8(I drew). That was the result for Day 1 and obviously I did not managed to enter Day 2.
Kok Ming on the left was facing against Paculio, DJonathan from the Philippines. Kok Ming won 2-1.
Ahmad on the right was playing against Fusta, Haudy from Indonesia. Ahmad lost 2-1 to him.
All the way from Alor Setar who play in Penang is Kar Wei. She is a new player along with her friends, Keren and Boon Ping. Kar Wei on the left playing against Zwischewberger, Trevor from the

. Kar Wei won 2-0.
Jeff Wong on the left was playing against Chang, Ching Ti from Taiwan. Jeff made few mistakes which he could have won. Finally he drew 1-1.
At around 9 pm, the standings were out. 4 players among our Penang geng only made it to Day 2. They were Kar Wei, Kok Ming, Ahmand and Rick Lee. The most surprising one was Kar Wei. For dinner, I ordered KFC(take away) and others bought Pizza(take away too). Everyone went back to the hotel to eat.

After dinner, everyone just hanged out for a while till 1 plus in the morning. Everyone was talking jokes and stuff. You can see that we were quite tired.

Day 3
Some went early to play 2nd Day and some went later to play PTQ Kobe. At round 11, Kar wei was facing Terry Soh(

Malaysia

number 1 player). In the first game, Kar Wei did very well and managed to bring down Terry's life total down to 2. Unfortunately, few mistakes cost her dearly and she lost 2-0 to Terry. It was really a waste as you can see Terry was nervous as I guess he was afraid to lose to a girl.

I did not stayed for long. At around 2, I went back ready. Finally Kenji from Japan won the Grand Prix.
I checked my standings on the website and found myself placed at 189 over 316. That was much better than I was expected as it was my first GP. To find out more, check out the event coverage here. It was really tiring, but a fun experience. Now I start to miss Penang again.....

Mr.Fcuk Is Born

2006-06-01T20:41:00.000+08:00

Hi guys, I have a new blog now. It is called Mr.Fcuk. That is the project which I wanted to start on. I will put a link to that blog on this blog. Although, there is a new blog, but I will still be updating this blog of mine. I just hope all of you will show me some support.

2006-05-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

Today, I finished my business presentation and what the heck, there is another one coming up next week. Plus I now have business presentation, social science presentation and economics essay. Now the pressure is really mounting. I really miss my seniors, my IPG friends, hometown friends and also my old self when I was in IPG. I really miss my old self. I feel like I am not myself lately and this means I have to get back no matter what. I know I can do it.

My project should be almost complete and will launch tomorrow as on the 1st of June. I hope that project will last for quite some time. I am not sure how will it be though but I can just hope for the best......

2006-05-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

Alright, managed to do Math test today and my business presentation is tomorrow. Luckily tomorrow there is no social science presentation. I guess today I was not really myself though. Perhaps I am too sleepy or I am in some kind of personality. So since I am free now, I want to get my template back into order. I will update my link list and also add some stuff. I also have to start my project so that it can be up and running on Thursday. Hope it will be a succesful one.....

2006-05-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

Now, my internet can be connected ready. I am so relief. However, tomorrow I have a Math Test coming up and business presentation on Wednesday. It is so stressful and I am a little sick. I just can't wait till Friday comes. Well, it will be the first time for me to see Marcus and all my Magic the Gathering friends from Penang in Kuala Lumpur. This is because this saturday is Grand Prix KL and it will be my first time joining it. I will certainly take a few photos with my camera phone and upload it on my blog......

2006-05-28T17:34:00.000+08:00

Why is the internet connection in my house still has not been fixed. This is really getting on my nerves. So now in school again. Thank God I finish cleaning just now. I guess tonight I have to do my social science and business homework and also English. Oh my, that's a lot and I am starting to fall sick again. I have felt sick 3 times since I was here. Feeling a little exhausted now.....

2006-05-27T21:31:00.000+08:00

First was a few, then it became more and now it is almost all. All my senior friends went back ready, except for Han who will depart tomorrow. I am all alone in the house and now updating my blog in uni, because the wireless connection in the house got some problem. I hope they fix it tomorrow. Today was quite tiring for me and so will be tomorrow. How I wish I have Professor Xavier's time stop.

Anyway, watched X-men 3 yesterday at Times Square. The movie was just a little average to me. Luckily I went to Mr.Brown's blog before I went to the movie, cause he asked his readers whether they watched the credits. So I stayed back for the credits and after the credits there was really something. To everyone who watched the movie but not the credits, too bad for you. Professor Xavier did not die. He is still alive lying in a hospital bed. That is why, always go to Mr.Brown's blog. Hope there is X-men 4......

2006-05-25T20:25:00.000+08:00

I guess this week was not a good week for me. Things are getting more tougher now and getting to know more people is not a very good thing sometimes. The people from a big town is certainly different from a small town. I really miss friends back in the small town. Pressure is pilling up now. More stories are being heard and it sometimes sound scary. I do not know how to differenciate which is real and which is not. This is what our parents always say about learning the way of life. It is hard to choose which person is the good one or the bad one. Now that all my seniors are going away it is getting much tougher. I really do not know anymore. It is like the road ahead is very dark. I am very afraid.......

2006-05-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

Finally I can take a break now because I have finished my 1000 words essay. What a relief. However, I have to do my business group presentation and also my social science presentation soon. I have to start again. This is really bad. Yesterday, my blog template went crazy so now you can see that it went back to the old template again. I have to start to change the template again. Plus I did not manage to start the project I was thinking of. Perhaps maybe on 1st of June.

Enough of that. Today was practically quite fun though. Most of my seniors, well almost all, left for Redang Island today. That is so cool. Today was Su Yin's birthday and they smashed whip cream on her face. Haha. Now that they have left, I am gonna miss them, some for few months and some for more than a year. I will see how it goes......

2006-05-20T06:45:00.000+08:00

I guess this is goodbye to some of my friends as they are leaving for United Kingdom in September. It is a waste that I could not join them today. I really thanked them because in just one month, I got to know so many friends. I really do not know why I like to hang out with people who are older than me. I am gonna miss them a lot because now it is their holiday. I decide to upload the photos now because the connection is good. Anyway, my Cbox does not seem to appear on my browser. I can see my Cbox if I use the school's computer. Perhaps I shall change to others..... Me and seniors for Chemical Engineering and one CSIT. Damn, I closed my eyes.

Me and seniors for Chemical Engineering and one CSIT. (Serious look)
Me and seniors for Chemical Engineering and one CSIT. What's over there?

TTS Residents
From left to right(Wilson, Eddie, Chi Ming, Yau Fee and me)

2006-05-19T08:55:00.000+08:00

Today is going to be a hard day for me as I have to finish off my 1000 words essay on social science. Moreover, I was thinking of starting my project tomorrow, but I am not sure whether it will work. Writing on blogs is really different, compared to writing essays with your hand. I am not sure whether I can get back to the state of writing essays. I have to resist the temptations from the games in my computer. It really does distract me or perhaps I have lost hope that I am finding another way to express myself by playing games. I have no idea. I will not be able to join my friends later in KL, due to my situation. Just hope they have a great time there......

2006-05-18T17:51:00.000+08:00

What a day it was for Arsenal. I consider them to be very unlucky but at the same time I am definitely proud of the players. For a team so young to make it to the Champions League Final is certainly superior. Now all I hope is that Henry will continue at Arsenal. Below are the pictures of the crowd last night at my University. It was really tense and exciting.....

2006-05-14T15:05:00.000+08:00

I decided to watch I Not Stupid 2 this morning. For those who does not know, it is actually a Singapore movie. I rate it 4 out of 5. It certainly speaks out the minds of many students nowadays, including me. I really respect Jack Neo for doing such a wonderful job on the movie.

What was filmed in the movie is really quite true. In a world with so advance technology, the workload of parents has certainly increased enormously. Parents really do not have time with their children now. Imagine wha it would be during our time. I really pitty them though. Seeing that few of my friends have already said that their parenting job will be taken over by their wives fully. I was really dissapointed to hear that. I really do agree with Jack Neo that critisicing is not the best way to teach children now. A little compliment is better to encourage children. I love the part when the two main actor went to join the gangsters. I feel that the situation portrays that whenever a child does not a place where they feel secure, they will start to search other places for security. The movie is really touching, unlike the first one. I do hope many of you can learn from the movie and change your perception......

2006-05-14T08:50:00.000+08:00

Alright, this is my first post in this blog without having a title. My connection is good this morning unlike last night where it is really, really bad. I am feeling a little better now after seeing a doctor. My phelgm is killing me here.

I tried to configure the Cbox for my blog last night and due to the slow connection, I gave up. I can't really load Cbox because it seems I need some plug-ins for my Firefox. So if someone out there who knows how to solve my problem, please help me. I have decided to remove the song from my blog as it will actually take quite a long time to load my blog. Perhaps I will just upload melody on my blog after finding a nice one. Final Fantasy melodies seem nice and I know Cheese does have quite a lot.

This weekend is not really a good weekend. Everything has gone wrong for me and I have to find a way back now. Tomorrow will be the starting of Form 6 again. Wish all those going to Form 6 good luck.....

50th Post

2006-05-12T09:11:00.000+08:00

Alright, I am glad to announce that this is my 50th post of my blog. I just found out that I have turned on comment moderation. That is why those who have left any comments on my blog was not able to see it until i have approve it. I have approved some of the comments. I just want to say thanks to you guys. Yeah, thanks Ken. I will meet up with you guys someday, once I have put all the worries of mine behind my head.

I was sick for the past few days, so I was not able to update the blog. I just heard that one of my mother's friend met with an accident and passed away two days back. He is just few years older than me. I guess it is really true that people say life is very short. Once we reach the age of 50 or 60 plus, we will slowly hear many news of our friends dying. I guess this really shows us that we really have to cherish the people around us and not wait till the last minute where one decides to tell out everything from one's heart just minutes before one dies. By the way I just came across an interesting news few days back. Studies have shown that after 5 millions years later, the male human species will be extinct and women will then conquer the world. Wow, how scary can that be? This means the only way to overcome this is one man with many wives. That is really, really bad. Maybe they will start to clone humans by then.

"This is the persistently non-political podcast" - Mr.Brown. Check out the episode 6. It is certainly the best episode of the non-political podcast. Long live the tur kwa, like what Mr.Brown says......

A Big Blow

2006-05-08T15:22:00.000+08:00

This big blow is not like what you heard or see on soccernet, as in not the kind of big blow of injury on a soccer players. This big blow is a blow on me, with affects me spiritually. When I just thought that it would be going to be sky high in the next few days because things got better over here, but I was wrong. Now I am in a state of dilemma again. How can I go on anymore? I really have no idea. It is really tough over here with competitions. With my depression problems some more, I am going to run of clues pretty soon. How I wish I could stop the studies here, but I got myself into other mess which I do not feel like blog about it. Basically, I am already trap, like a bee trapped in a pot full of sticky honey. It is different if you have plenty of support, but there is none here. Is the counsellor very good here? However I felt a little better after chatting with my friend though. It was certainly very great. It has already been almost one and a half year since I fall into depression. I really do not know whether it is possible to be cured, but I doubt so. I am still not sure whether I will go on with my project like I said I would. Like I said, I will maybe stop schooling here after my foundation. I guess if things would get any worse, well there is always one solution.........

Project Coming Up

2006-05-08T03:52:00.000+08:00

It is 3 plus now in the morning, almost reaching 4. Wondering what I am doing? Well I am chatting with my friend, Lone Survivor through MSN. Well, we talk about friends and stuff. Now I realise that I have lost touch of the world ready. Only focus on Dota World only. Haha. Anyway, I have not touch The Star until today since I have came here.

I was thinking of creating something else, certainly a pure inspiration from a blogger, but not so soon. Only time will tell. I will certainly post up once I have started the project.......

Back Online

2006-05-03T17:02:00.000+08:00

I just found out that it is not necessary to write a title for your posts on blogger. I just got my internet connection yesterday. Well the connection isn't that good as it is operated by a small company. Plus it is wireless. I am updating my blog now at the library. Haha...

Perhaps

2006-04-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

I have not updated my blog for the past few days because I fell sick. It is just the second week of school and I have already fell sick.

Anyway, I had a lot of thinking really for the past few days. I do not know how to describe it, but I seriously lost the urge of studying. I am not sure whether how long can I go on over here, with not much support. I started to wonder, whether I should have went to Australia to study, or I should have stayed in IPG or I should studied Mass Communication or even I should have sticked to my belief that I should go to work. However, if I worked, how long can my money support me till, but if I study, am I wasting my time, since I can start earning money. I have thought of stop schooling over here, but maybe I should go on for few more weeks or maybe even months to see how it goes.

I do not know why, but I seem to get along better with people who are older than me. Perhaps it was because of my PTS, and after that, I started to get along with older friends. "Is it because they are more mature", sometimes I wonder. I do not have many friends yet at the moment, apart from my housemates and their friends, but I hope I will get along with them soon. Perhaps it is because of my depression problems which restrict me or perhaps it is the maturity of my coursemates. I do not know and I guess I will see how winding the road is. If worst comes to worst(http://www.wsu.edu/~brians/errors/worse.html), perhaps I will just stop when my foundation finishes.....

All Star Tertiary Education

2006-04-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

Actually if Malaysia want to have a good university or college it is possible, but will not be that easily accomplish. I was thinking that a university is built and the lecturers are all the best you can find in Malaysia. This means, there must be people to scout around in all universities and colleges throughout Malaysia to find the best of the best and put it into a single university. Would not that be cool? It will certainly be an all star place for students to study.......

Encarta And Google Earth

2006-04-20T15:57:00.000+08:00

Today's class was not so bad. I kinda like my English teacher, Ms.Cecily. She is funny and damn fun to be with. The english class just now just reminds me of Pn.Maria, my English tuition teacher. It would be great if she is teaching here.

Anyway, I just found out that few computers in the labs have Google Earth. I have used it just now, and it was kinda cool. You can get the free version of the software here. Plus, Microsoft Encarta is a great software too. It helps students with their studies as you can find out articles, news, pictures for your studies. The website is right here. Unfortunately, the software has to be purchase......

Baker's Haven

2006-04-18T14:49:00.000+08:00

Luckily I found a small restaurant near my house. It is called Baker's Haven. I just went there on Sunday and the food there is quite good actually. I think most of the dishes there are priced reasonably, as the portions are big, unlike the cafeteria. Plus, it is just a walking distance from my house here.

Things are getting along better now. Economics is not too bad today as the lecturer is quite good. Perhaps because I have learnt quite a lot from Mr.John(IPG lecturee), so I can cope very well. Unfortunately, Accounts is starting next semester. The computer lab is really full now and tonight it will be a great match between Barcelona and AC Milan........

Unlucky ?

2006-04-17T17:26:00.000+08:00

Well, today is my first day of class. Well, the maths was a little though. I do have to admit it. Then it was IT class. I guess in KL, people are really different from the northen region. It really is. There is really people who are damn hardworking and some are like really nerds and really this time there are really the popular ones. It is just like in the movies. I feel a little withdrawn now. Well I guess because there is apart of me who wants to be superior, but I really want to change that. Or perhaps that I am always unlucky that I have all these kinds of people around me. I mean if I have my housemates in the same course with me, it would be fun. Guess I need to go and see the counsellor for some help. It is more competitive here now. I really miss IPG and Novelhut/2020.

Check this out guys. I went to Mr.Brown's blog and saw this. This is really crazy. It looked really real. But if it is real, I will see it. Here is the link to the video - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfMqeas5wKA

Semenyih Town

2006-04-15T19:54:00.000+08:00

Today I managed to go to Semenyih Central myself. I almost banged a car. Plus there is a Pasar Malam(Night Market) and there were lots of people, so the road was a little congested. I went to an Internet Cafe. I thought they would have Zion MIRC for Dota, but no. So played Dota for a while there and played Winning Eleven 8. After that, went to Fajar to eat KFC. Anyway, there is still one more Internet Cafe that I haven't try it out yet. I managed to find a post office here which means I can do eBay.

I went to the Student Association building just now and wanted to watch soccer, but there were people watching other shows. Well, hopefully later there will be people watching the Arsenal match.......

Getting Any Worse?

2006-04-14T13:57:00.000+08:00

Alright, back in the computer lab again. Well, I am starting to feel tired now. Things are not going as what I expect. Now, three of my housemates, which are the best I think, are going to have their summer break soon, in a few weeks time. So, that means, I will be alone at home for around 4 months. That is not the worst part. The worst part is, one of my housemates is going to the United Kingdom to proceed his studies and the other two are moving to another house. I really want to stay with them in the same house but I am not sure whether it is possible. If it is not, then I guess I have to pray that I get a room on the in the campus. Plus, in a situation like that, I am not sure whether to apply for internet connection. They are really cool, like what I have typed in my last post. Unfortunately, the accomodation lady, who is in charge, does not look cool.

To show you how cool are they, I shall type it out. First of all, I got to learn how to play Hong Kong Mahjong (three people) on the first day here. I have been longing to learn and now finally I have to learnt it. Moreover, they do not involve money, which means it is not gambling. Then, some of them are Dota players. I played Dota last night until this morning around 5. Wow, that is really crazy. Apart from that, they also exercise once in a week(badminton), which means they are not plain studying only. Finally, the best part is that they do not smoke(I think).

I really do not know how long can I go on any longer. I mean, this is the University of Nottingham. Can't it be better? I guess like people always say, looks can really be deceiving. So, I think you guys should reconsider first. I am just typing out my experience and I will update some more soon. So I hope you guys do stay tune.....

Good Or Bad?

2006-04-13T17:09:00.000+08:00

Alright, I am now in the University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus. I am not sure whether this is good or bad. I seriously have no idea. Alright, first of all, there is no free Wi-Fi in the campus and that means I need to apply. Next, I am not sure whether should I apply an wireless internet connection for my house as it may take quite a long time to set up(as usual which piss me off). That means, I cannot play Dota, I cannot download songs and movies.

However, there is no doubt that the campus is really nice and stuff. I am certainly not sure how long can I survive this road. Will this road be a better road or a worse. But, my housemates look cool........

Dota

2006-04-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

What a time to start to learn how to play Dota. I just learnt it yesterday and now starting to like it. Unfortunately, I am going to start schooling soon. So, I cannot really play much though, but it is quite fun. Here is the link to the website. I hope those who have not play them will enjoy it....

Great Things ?

2006-04-08T22:54:00.000+08:00

I guess today really showed me that I can achieve great things. Maybe the achievement is not that great, perhaps it is just something which I use to comfort myself with. I have no idea. However, now that I know that I still have a little bit of hope I think.

Alright, enought of that. Well, is going to clubs or pubs that great? Is it that fun really? All you do is drink, laugh, talk more, smoke and die faster. What is up? I really do not understand. Is it really the trend now? Does people think that people under the age of 18 going to these places is common now? I really do not know. But, I know is I do not fancy these kind of places. Yes, you can say that I am an idiot or weird, but hey, it is just me........

Goodbye NovelHut/Twenty Twenty

2006-04-07T22:21:00.000+08:00

Today, technically is one of my sadest days in my life. Well, it is because I'm not going to be able to see my friends at Marco's place for quite some time. The only way I can see them soon is in June, during KL Grand Prix. After that, it will be like few months once. I really going to miss them a lot. Marcus and Rosanne are like one of my closest friends to me. Plus Terence and Bouncer(Ban Lee). I guess the chances of me laughing and smiling again will drop as I always entertain myself with Marcus's jokes. They are the ones who really cheer me up once in a week. You can imagine me writing this blog with a little tears in my eyes. I really do not know what to say. I really miss the Magic community there. If you guys are reading this, I just want to say goodbye guys..........

Men With Gadgets, Women With Fashion

2006-04-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

Two days back, I went to the Pizza Hut in my town. Yup, the renovation is complete. Anyway, I start to understand the real facts about men and women. In this current generation, the females really face enormous pressure. They really need to dress up. Seriously, is outer beauty that important? Why do they do that? Do they need to show that they are superior or they want to attract the attention of guys or is it just the effect of hormones? I really have no idea. I guess they spend a lot of money on clothes. I think women will want to "decorate" each part of their body which can be decorated, as long as there is something to decorate that part. From bras to shoes, they need to match everything they wear. No wonder women nowadays want to find men who can afford are financially secure.

As for men, now I understand why men now focus more on work. It is a competition in the work place for them, unlike female. They need to show results. Moreover, they prefer to keep themselves up to date with the latest technologies, whereas females prefer to keep themselves up to date with fashion. Cars, televisions, computers plus anything to do with technologies, they will try to get the latest. Men now are quite pitty really. They seem to be a weaker sex because they seem to not able to live without women. They rather give women money to spend, instead of love, to keep them. However, perhaps it is their lust which has to be blame........

A Turn Around Goal?

2006-04-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

In a few days time, I will be going to Kajang. I have to really pack now. I feel really tiring now to go back to school. I feel like I need a holiday. I am going to miss Penang very much, especially at Marco's. Anyway, at least I have taught a few players over here the basic rules about Magic. Hopefully, they will take up that game and start playing, so I have someone to play with over here. Of course, the Penang players are the best.

5 years down the road, there may be a monorail in Penang Island. If that is really going to happen, then perhaps I will work in Penang instead of Singapore. You gotta to say, why do I like island so much. Seriously, I have no idea. I just feel that it is kinda relaxing, but of course it is a different story if a tsunami comes.

I was thinking of creating another blog of what I have been through, like Mr.Brown, as in a blog about all the funny events I have experienced or seen. It is going to be cool if I can managed that. I am still wondering whether I am able to do that........

Woman - A Victim?

2006-04-01T11:46:00.000+08:00

Nowadays, women or girls, are victims of the eyes of men. No matter where a female is, whether it is in a restaurant, on the street, or even in a office, men are always checking out on them. I saw this happening a few times. Does women really want to attract the attention of men when they are walking, or men just cannot escape from their lust? If only I have photos to prove my statement........

Changing To Blogger

2006-03-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

Well, I guess Blogger having more and more users. My friend, Siew Lee has also moved to Blogger recently. Honestly, blogger seems cooler, as one can customize the outlook of the blog in anyway one wants. Liew and Kenneth also moved to Blogger last year and me too.

Anyway, the Pizza Hut at my town here is going through renovation. I am surprise that they have enough money to renovate the shop. I thought the business isn't that good. However, the shop looks nicer and more hi-tech......

Last Day Of IPG

2006-03-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last day for me in IPG. In just two months plus, I have learnt a lot from my lecturers and my friends there. It was certainly a great experience for me - to get to know people from different walks of life, unlike secondary school, where everyone is from the same town. This made me felt more prepared when I go to the University of Nottingham. I hope the people there are as good as the ones in IPG. Well, I consider myself very lucky though, because I get to join an intake which has great students.

Anyway, I have learnt a valuable lesson during my last day of IPG. Well, an incident occured which showed me a mimic of my character last time. Now, I really understand how it made people feel. I guess that is why people always say that we must learn from our mistakes and others. Sometimes, one need to experience it on oneself to know how it actually feel. It had really taught me something important and now I have to be more cautious. That character of mine has not "creep" out for quite some time and I believe I have to "trap" it now. We always need to think twice before we want to say something.

I got to say that I will miss my friends and my lecturers. They have been wonderful. If anyone is still searching for any colleges, just try out IPG and see how it goes.......

Cap Mania

2006-03-20T21:15:00.000+08:00

I was quite busy for the past few days and seriously, I have no idea on what to post on my blog. I seem to run out of ideas. Anyway, my memory is running really low, as in I seriously losing out memories. My memorisation strength has decreased a lot, maybe due to using too much of computer. I guess it is not able to be cured, so I guess I have to leave it and wait until I am diagonised as suffering from brain cancer.

Alright, back to the topic. I went down to KL during the weekend. I bought another cap again from FCUK, I just could not resist not to buy that cap. I now have four FCUK caps, (well actually supposed to be five, but the first one I threw it away, due to some stuff on the cap). Here is a picture of the caps I have......

Now A Driver

2006-03-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

What a day!! After 7 hours of waiting, finally I passed my driving exam. It was really hot and tiring. I was almost dying before I did the driving on the main road. Anyway, I will be getting my license in a few days time. I can't really wait to drive all the way to Marcus's place to play cards......

The Lion City

2006-03-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

It has been almost three months since I left Singapore and I feel like going back there again. I really miss Singapore, words cannot really describe it. Whenever I feel depressed, frustrated, disappointed, I really wish I am at Clarke Quay. I still remember sitting at the bridge at Clarke Quay, watching all sorts of people walking around. I really miss the Clarke Quay fountain, which I spent some time gazing into the fountain with my hand touching the water. It was really relaxing which just release some of my feelings inside. I missed the times where I ran to catch the MRT. It was really pure great fun, but I guess it would be more fun if I had companions with me.

Anyway, I managed to finish my Economics essay which I did not expect I will finish it. Many things have going through my head lately, getting a little headache. Now I understand that sometimes, being liberated from parents might sometimes spoil a child. That is one theory I found that it might be true, which after I heard it from my friends. Few hours more and few of my friends will be coming back from National Service.......

Losing Momentum

2006-03-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

For the past few weeks, my momentum has dropped. It is like a graph, first it went so high up and now gradually falling. Getting tired easily nowadays. Moreover, now I am piilled up economics coursework, economics essay, statistics survey and business communication. Wow, what a moment. I guess it will get more hectic now, even worse than last time. Perhaps, stern discipline have to be taken into account now. In addition, I have slowly losing out inspiration to write my blog.

Nevertheless, I still had some fun for the past few weeks. Went out with my friends to Gurney yesterday to watch Final Destination 3. Now, I guess that perhaps different places have different culture, so the way of getting along with friends is also different. I guess maybe I am the one who is not looking deep enough into the people's heart. Well, I sort of withdrawn myself a little in making friends, since I fell into depression. However, the depression problems might be recovering very slowly.

Anyway, feeling a bit tired now. So, I will go and sleep now and wake up later for the Barcelona vs Chelsea match. Go Catalans. It will be a cracking game.....

78th Oscar Academy Award

2006-03-05T14:04:00.000+08:00

Well, tonight is the 78th Oscar Academy Award. Will Brokeback Mountain and Ang Lee win the most awards? Ironically, I did not even watch Brokeback Mountain. I am not sure why the movie is nominated for so many awards, but I will watch it soon. Should I create a movie review blog? Just let me know. You can find out more about the Oscar Academy Award here - http://www.oscar.com/

Closer (2004)

2006-03-04T21:29:00.000+08:00

Closer is a movie about love, deception, trust and sex. Julia Roberts, Clive Owen, Natalie Portman and Jude Law really stand out in the movie. Basically, the movie is about relationship and how lies slowly creep into relationships. It’s a movie that shows how relationships now can be terminated easily and how seductive sex is. Relationship is really a complicated matter. It is not just “I Love You”, but it is more of honesty, understanding and trust. Dating couples can now just break up easily, so are married couples, as it is just a divorce paper. Overall, I give it a 7.5 out of 10. The soundtrack “The Blower’s Daughter” is not to be left out too……

Moon Over Penang Island

2006-02-28T21:47:00.000+08:00

These photos were taken one day after Chap Goh Meh. The photos were taken with a camera phone from a ferry. I am sorry as the pictures aren't that clear. Enjoy...

Editing My Posts

2006-02-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

It has been quite some time since I updated my blog and blogs must always go on. Bloggers like Liew, Siew Lee, Chan, Kenneth are all slowing down as college and university life are always hectic.

I have finished my Business Communication presentation on Thursday. Now, I am quite relief and get to find some space. Spent two days playing Football Manager 2006. Now, I have to finished quite a lot of things. I have to do my Accounts homework, sort out my cards, practice my guitar and drum and of course I want to edit all my posts at Blogger. I want to check over my sentences to reduce grammatical errors. I have to go through lots of posts......

2.45 A.M

2006-02-17T02:43:00.000+08:00

It's 2.45 A.M. I just finished my business communication homework. I am listening to Perfect 10 now while eating some fruit bar my uncle bought me last year from Singapore. I'm really hungry now. Tired? Not really. That's the problem. I don't know why I'm not really tired. Should I sleep I wonder, cause I have to wake up at 5.30 later to go to school. Anyway, now I understand what is pressure. Pressure can spoil or can make someone better, but having pressure with family support is different than having pressure without family support. You will feel better with some support, because you know that at least there's someone cares for you. It's really hard for the past few days, but now it's getting better I guess. I am starting to like IPG now, but I still can't make up my mind yet. It's kinda hard. anyway, will continue with my next post....

Singapore's Perfect 10 (98.7 FM)

2006-02-14T20:29:00.000+08:00

Yes, Perfect 10 (98.7FM). I finally continue listening to Perfect 10 after few months of break. The Malaysia's Hitz.Fm isn't that nice anymore and Singapore's Perfect 10 is so much better. As you can see, I have added a link to the website on the right. The only way you can listen to it is by listening it online, if you are not in Singapore. Heard from the Singapore radio that they are having some national defencing thingy tomorrow at 12 in the afternoon. That's really something special. Besides, heard of a Hollaback crew thingy. It's about some kind of cheerleading plus singing performance. That looks cool....

I hate corruption. I heard of a shocking thing just now. It's about an incident about a raped girl few weeks back at this town. It seems that there is something suspicious about the case..........

Busy Schedule

2006-02-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

I haven't been upadating my blog for quite some time as I am busy with studies. I'm quite tired, depressed, moody, hungry and many more for the past few days. The endurance I learnt in Singapore is really, really applicable in my life.

At least, I have time to take some breath here to update my blog. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day and I guess many romance events will be happening around the world. I feel that Valentine's Day shouldn't just be only a day for people to spend some romance time together as this can be done everyday. I think Valentine's Day should be made as a special day for couples to ask forgiveness from each other for every mistakes they have done to each other in a year. Yeah, I think that should be something special.......

Hectic

2006-02-08T20:47:00.000+08:00

It's starting to get hectic now. Now that I have more and more things to do, more and more things to think, having more and more desires. Went for my car practical just now in the afternoon and it was not bad. Bumped the back of a car just now cause was dreaming a little, but it was just a slight bump (luckily). The fun part of the driving process is driving while listening to Light and Easy and all your favourite songs just pop up one by one, in a environment which is surronded by trees. Unfortunately, the rising temperature of death is killing me. I think my right hand is sunburned. It's very redish now. Perhaps there's a slight chance that the skin cancerous cells are activated.

Later on, went for music class. The guitar lessons are now getting harder (well maybe cause I didn't really practice). The F chord is killing me as my fingers are actually quite short and it hurts really bad especially my thumb. If only my fingers are longer. Started my first drum lesson today(after guitar) and it was well harder than I thought. I have always prefer drum than guitar. But at least drum doesn't need to think that much, it's only the timing and the technique that counts.

What a hectic day it was. And now for IPG, four days a week, 4 hours spent overall on transportation. It's really crazy and hectic. Plus now with a lot of homework to do. Oh my God, I can't really stand it anymore. Luckily I have learnt a lot during my trip in Singapore which taught me how to travel very much. That really gave me much endurance. I really miss Singapore so much, that everyday I'm dreaming that I'm now at Singapore and every place here is like a small little part of Singapore which not many people care about. It's really hectic and now I gotta do my Accounts homework....

Football Crazy Photos

2006-02-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

After so long, I finally developed the Football Crazy photos. I was really stupid actually, I accidentally open the film part although the camera had not ran out of film, so luckily one photo got exposed and that was the one I took with Sharkee Tan. At least I have 3 photos. What you are going to see is very funny as I was not like really ready when I took the photo. I didn't really got in the mood, and the first photo, I blinked my eye. It was actually quite a waste....

The Breakfast Club (1985)

2006-01-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

The Breakfast Club was released in 1985. It's quite a nice movie. Watched it on Astro and find it quite inspiring. Like I said before, there are plenty of inspiring movies out there which we do not know, it's just up to us to find out.

This movie is clearly about 5 people who got detention and they each have their own personal problems. So, during detention, they did a group support and helped each other to express their feelings and helped each other to change. I would give it a 8 of out 10.

I clearly like it as I'm in depression, so it does help me release some feelings. Group support is very useful, but the problem is I can't find place for group support. Group support are always better with strangers.....

Learning The Philosophies Of Life

2006-01-25T22:09:00.000+08:00

I have learnt a lot in my life for the past three to four years, especially the times when I fall into depression. Perhaps falling into depression isn't a bad thing after all, as it helps me realise a lot. I have grown a lot and still growing mentally.

We, as children when we were young always had a good and easy life. As we grow up, the life just gets harder, as the road ahead of us getting darker. That's when we start to learn from our mistakes. An adult or a teenager or a kid doesn't have much differences between them as everyone makes mistake. I have started to learn everything the hard way, but not everything so far. I once heard a person said that once we are born we start to die. Well, certainly that's very true, because we never know when we'll die. That's why everyone has to cherish any happenings in a day, so that you can sleep soundly in the night.

One lesson I have learnt is creative thinking, which is trying to look at things from a different angle, try to look at things from out of the box. Another lesson I have learnt from the movie Legally Blonde 2 is speak up for yourself. One must always be ready to reject what is wrong or bad. Try to express yourself especially when one is sad or angry. It makes you feel young too.

There are many winding roads ahead of us and we will always not know when the roads end, but when they end, we will wish there is a way out.......

10 Rules When Making New Friends

2006-01-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

I haven't been updating my blog for quite a long time, because I am busy with studies, card tourney and other stuff.... Anyway, today wasn't much a very good day....

These are the 10 rules one has to know when making new friends
1. Try to choose a friend with no bad habits, for example smoking, drinking.
2. Never tell them about their financial background.
3. Tell them the truth, but not important facts.
4. Never trust them yet, and don't let them know you trust them yet.
5. Always say no if they are trying to push you to do some things which is bad.
6. Try to find what interest you two share in common.
7. Always keep the relationship professional.
8. Never ask them to help you do many things.
9. Never show yourself off or brag about yourself.
10. Lastly, be yourself(if you are good), don't change yourself because of peer pressure.

First Day At IPG

2006-01-19T20:58:00.000+08:00

For many of you who don't know what is IPG, it's actually Institute Perkim-Goon. It's actually quite a good tertiary education center in Penang. It's afforable and good.

I had Accounting and Business Communication on the first day. Accounting was just plain alright but Business Communication was fun. The lecturer is Ms.Geethaletchmi. She's really good and funny who can crack jokes. Had my first homework today, which is to do a presentation on 23rd of February and the topics that were given are really tough. It's really unlike the old secondary school thingy.

The first day is always a hard day. For me, the hardest part is to choose your friends. Our presentation is a group work, so each group consists of 4 people. There were 13 of us and I was the one left out. So I had to choose which group. Basically I can't enter a full girls' group, so I was left with the ones who are good in English and was left with the Chinese school educated ones. After few seconds of thinking, I have decided to join the so call 'nerds' group, because I had experiences with the so call the 'popular' ones during my times at secondary school, and it wasn't that great to be the 'popular' ones. Guess it was a wise choice and they are quite nice to mix with......

Rusell Peters

2006-01-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, found something to write about after searching high and low. Just formatted my computer because of stupid viruses.

Russell Peters is an Indian-Canadian comedian. Watched one of his shows and it was really funny. I think you can download the show here. You all better watch it man. The official website of him can be found here. I love when he changes his accent. Please do watch his show and you will learn things. It's really wicked.

Not much to write though, but at least there's something. By the way, the dog behind my house is barking these days, wondering whether something bad is coming up soon.....

Need Something

2006-01-11T00:10:00.000+08:00

Feeling quite bored actually now. Really need to do some things to fill in my free time. I can't always stick to the computer all day. Getting back to Magic and it is so much fun. Can't wait to go back to Marcus's again and especially to play some tournaments. Pre-release is up next, then it would be Pro Tour Prague Qualifiers. Hope to get top 8 in the Pro Tours Qualifiers but I know it would be very hard. I didn't get top 20 before in any tournaments. Anyway, need to find some community to spend some time with. Just found out that there is a shop selling Yu-Gi-Oh cards and there are players playing at S.P. The owner of the shop told me that there were few Magic players who asked him whether he sells Magic. I wasn't expecting people in S.P playing Magic. That is really a surprise. Anyway, hopefully one day get to meet them. Anyone has any ideas on what to do to reduce boredom??

Family Planning

2006-01-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

Family planning is seriously important. To start a family is not as easy as everyone thinks. Surely, you will feel very proud to start your family when you have your first child(cause it's easy to make a child), but when you have a child, it will be really, really hard down the road.

Before anyone thinks to have a child, one must consider one's financial situation carefully. Many poor families tend to have many children(often more than 4) and they still think that is fine. For me, I wouldn't imagine how much the parents have to spend on their school fees itself and also on tuitions. The paper showed that many people couldn't afford to buy new uniform and other school essential items for their children as RM 500 need to be spend on each child(roughly calculated). Imagine those parents with 4 children. They need to spend RM 2000 for the new year and more for their future education.

This is seriouly unlogical. Certainly, some people say that having a child is a God's gift, but in today's world, nothing beats MONEY as it is the second most powerful thing on Earth (Mother Nature is the first of course). So, why do you want to have some many children if you can't afford to bring them up. What children really want is love - time with their parents, understanding and supportive parents, parents with full of fun and many more. You don't just give birth to a child and don't tutor them in their education yourself and decided to send them to tuition. Although that is what most of the parents do today, but seriously no children want to be in that situation, neither do I. I know parents also want to have time on their own to have fun, but once you have children, you can't have fun any more with your friends. I rather have my parents to teach me in my studies, but do they know what we are studying in school? Do they have time for us? I guess not. Parents and future parents, please wake up !!!

2006

2006-01-02T00:10:00.000+08:00

So, it's the New Year again, like any other ordinary new years. New years are all just the same to me. It's the second day of the new year, one day late on updating my blog. Anyway, the 1st of January was a good day for me.

I took a bus to Penang today. Well, it was my frist time taking a bus to Penang.The bus station isn't that good compared to Singapore. Anyway, I reached the Butterworth jetty and took the ferry across to Penang. Then, I took a bus from there to One Stop. The bus from in Penang was terrible. It was so stuffy and hot. There was one Westerner who said that the bus was ridiculous. No wonder the papers are always complaining about the bus services in Penang. I reached One Stop at 2pm. It took me 2 and a half hour from my place all the way to One Stop. That was just too long.

Played double draft at Marcus's place today and it was not bad. I was quite satisfy with the result. After that, I went for a wedding dinner at Gurney Hotel. I met Nicol David in the wedding dinner. I was like so angry cause I didn't have a digital camera with me. Anyway, I took a photo with her using my uncle's handphone, although the picture wasn't really clear. I will upload the picture soon. Later, wanted to get her autograph, but didn't know what things I could let her sign on. Decided to take my card album for her to sign. So now, I have a signed card album by Nicol David (World Squash Champion). Guess will frame the album....

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind (2004)

2005-12-31T12:58:00.000+08:00

Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind is about a couple who went for a erasing memory procedure. This movie isn't that bad, but you really have to listen to everything they say and pay attention. It is a love movie, where it shows us that we have to cherish our relationship although there will always be misunderstandings between two people. Apart from that, this movie also shows that we can't escape fate. Even though they managed to erase their some part of their memory, they still meet somehow due to fate.

I do love watching love or romance movies, but somehow I didn't really enjoyed the movie well enough, maybe is because I wasn't really putting myself into the picture.

So, today is New Year's Eve. Guess, will be celebrating alone at home watching soccer.....

My First Goal and Its Dilemma

2005-12-29T22:38:00.000+08:00

Now, I have a goal in my life and I feel that my life is back again. I want to work in Singapore and apply for Permanent Residence(PR) there after my graduation, unless certain things come up. I want a country which is organized and secured. I'll try my best to achieve this goal of mine.

Unfortunately, some things worry me, which is the construction of two casinos there. Casinos are undoubted attractions to lure in more tourists into a certain country, but there are also disadvantages. Many people will be addicted to gambling and many will face financial crisis. When these happen, many people will suicide, some will rob, kill and borrow money from illegal lenders. These will increase the crime rate of Singapore and will make it an insecure country, unless the Singapore Police Force improves its services.
I hope Singapore won't fall as I have worries about the casinos being built there. But if nothing goes wrong, then I will most probably be working there. All I have to do is to wait....

Uniquely Singapore

2005-12-28T21:49:00.000+08:00

Uniquely Singapore is the word that is used to describe Singapore. Singapore is certainly, absolutely, undoubtedly unique. I have fallen in love with that country so much that I am longing to go back there again. I guess it is the best country in the world or perhaps England(as I haven't been there, so I don't know). In Singapore, you can go to anywhere without worrying a thing. I guess that has made the biggest difference between Malaysia and Singapore. The crime rate there is low and the transportation service is marvellous. So you can travel anywhere in Singapore anytime, either by foot, taxi, car, bus, or MRT. They are now constructing a new MRT line which is call Circle Line which covers 29 stations and it will be 33.3 kilometres long. You don't need a car to survive there. The environment is great and the economy is stable. You can have great food plus shopping. Overall, I'll give it a 9.5 out of 10. Thank you Singapore and I love Singapore !!!